Funny thing..I just spent about 40 minutes chosing a skin for this journal...damn my life is boring right now
So, I guess I will just write random things that have been happening and therefore, it seems fitting to let the whole world know about them too.

And I'm not drunk...yet..if somebody is wondering...I'm actually at work..and should be working...

I have been having several dreams lately where I'm kissing a girl. The girl itself is not important, cause I can't remember her face. The fact is, I noticed that I have been sleeping a lot lately, like, 18 hours straight. I thought at first that I was reaaaally tired, but now I realize that I just wanna keep dreaming, 'cause obviously, my dreams lately are a loooot better than real life, is soooo many aspects. Some may say that this is ridiculous, that spending my weekends sleeping just to kiss something that it's not even real, well, that's the thing, I choose sleeping and kissing than awake and completely miserable.
It ain't a matter that no one likes me, far from that, it's just...well..the ones that do, wouldn't be my..first choices per say...
It is like this, there's this guy that likes me a lot, and there's nothing wrong with him actually, the thing is..he is 42...and has a worse job than me, and no bigger aspiration to life...and that counts a lot for me....
And the other one, well...is a 11-year old girl, who for some unknow reason has a terrible crush on me, like following me around, grabing my arm and hand, and smelling my hair and neck(the latter can be quite dangerous for anyone to do).
So I probably don't have any right to complain, as there are people is a worse situation than me, but as I don't know them..fuck them...

Work has been quite..well...nice...the bitch that worked here resigned..my boss stoped busting my balls...and I am quite proud of my latest(is there a plural for this word?) works^^

I have not seem my dearest friends in quite a while..like more than a month, so they are probably doing anything that can be used as an excuse to say they can't hang out with me. Or something like that....

My ex-girldfriend (the one from like almost 3 years ago) still haunts me, I'm still trying to figure out why :S I don't even know if is love that I still feel, or hate for been kinda of cheated on...maybe something in between, or even because I could not find another person that fits me so well as her, that understand me so much, and better yet, that had the patience to endure my rage attacks(non-violent of course, shame on the women-beating a-holes).

Let's see what else...hnmm..oh yeah...I have gigantic debts to pay...but I don't wanna talk about that....

Hnmmm...what else....drinking with mah buddehs is not that fun anymore..I don't know why...something to do with the fact that I feel pretty miserable....it's not that it sucks, fun things happen and all...but after I just feel veeeery bad, and not the hangover bad, but you know...bad..as in deeply sad...marvin sad...

Anything else.hnmm...let's see...nothing about girls...nor boys...nothing about work....nothing on studies...just absoluty nothing nice going on...

Now I just realised that one thing that happened im my dreams, almost came true.
I dreamt that I had to leave someplace, some sort of ranch...or an old village, anyway, and I was just saying goodbye to everybody, and this girl came up to me and I asked If I couldn't stay more. I said I had to leave at night. She looked pretty pissed and just answered "Well if you want to leave so much then just go", and turned around and kinda of stomped her way to a house. I ran after her, hugged her, and looked deeply into those brown eyes, and then she kissed me, and then threw me at the wall and kinda of feel me...like..really abused me..and of course, that is when I woke up, all sweaty and excited.

Do you remember the 11-year old girl I mentioned? So, she is pretty much this girl in my dream, she truly gets mad when I have to leave the bar(she stays there with her mother, but she lives like next door to me and the bar), is always holding me, and I bet that if she could she would have tried to kiss me many times....not that I'm boasting or anything..it just seems like it...

Anyway..gotta go now...try to work a little.
It's so nice to write a bunch of things you know, put them out of you, for no particular reason, other than trying to attract attention, to feel like somebody care about..

oh well
Autobots! Roll out!

PS.: Remember when I said I lost a lot of time choosing a skin?...well..I just realise I must have a membership to be able to use skins....now that sucks....